The "eleven" and Me (Update)

**This is a pretty graphic post. If this is a side of me you don't want to know, then don't read it.**

Okay, so you've probably just read about my encounter with the njoy "eleven" from the other night. It definitely took me a little bit to write it up.

But I'd like to post this update while it's still fresh in my mind and because I wasn't going to let this piece defeat me. I'm just like that. I like a challenge.

The past couple of days, as I wrote up the last post, I kept thinking about how I was going to really enjoy this piece... without the use of a "fluffer". How was this going to work? How was I going to do this without breaking myself in half?
Then it hit me: I needed another angle... another approach to the "eleven"....
There's only a difference of 1/4" between the two ends, but it's pretty amazing how much of a difference that 1/4" can be! Sheesh!

I thought about this last night as I fell asleep.... make the approach from the top!
So this morning... yes, this morning... I decided I was going to try again. Maybe it's a little obsessive, but it's all in the name of "research", right? ;-)

With my Je Joue "MiMi", my "eleven", my lube, and my Sliquid "O" Gel to help me get revved up a little faster, I was on my mission!
After some warmup with my MiMi and the smaller end of the "eleven", I sat up....

Placing the "eleven" on my bed so it was sitting up at an angle, I made my approach... okay, breathe... relax... I knew if I started to doubt myself, my muscles were going to tense... I can do this...
At first, my body was like "WTF do you think you're doing?!"... breathe... slow... slowly.... just ease myself onto it... I can do this...

*sigh* Breathe.... slowly lowering myself onto it... I can't even describe the feeling as it enters me... But I can tell you a moan escaped my lips when I felt that full girth... a very good moan...
Whew! Wow... I "rode" the "eleven" for a bit... just enjoying that angle... that fullness... and the G-spot stimulation.... wow...
I slowly lowered myself onto my back and just relaxed and worked it... wow....

With the "eleven" inside of me and MiMi on my clitoris... oh yeah...
"Hello, 'eleven'... nice to meet you. You were definitely worth the wait and effort. Like a good man."

As I sit here writing this post, I can still feel the "eleven" inside of me... my muscles remembering the sensation...

The njoy "eleven" and Me....

**This is a pretty graphic post. If this is a side of me you don't want to know, then don't read it.**

"Hello, 'eleven'... you've been giving me the eye long enough. I think I'm ready to take you on." is what I thought to myself. On a Monday of all days. I really have no idea what brought it on. Maybe it was the challenge.

Seriously, if you haven't seen this incredible piece from njoy in person, you have no idea. Sure, there are photos and you can read the measurements, but nothing compares to really seeing it in person so you can feel its coolness and feel its weight.

I actually won the "eleven" at our annual "For Your Pleasure" convention back in '09. Yeah, I've had it for that long. I'm sure those of you who are huge fans of the "eleven" are probably on the verge of tears at the thought of this piece going unused for so long.

I love stainless steel. I already own the Pure Wand and the Fun Wand, the Fun Wand being my favorite.

The "eleven" just plain scared me! Certainly not for mere mortals.

This beast used to sit in my car as a weapon in case I ever needed it. Can you see the headline? "Carjacker fended off with stainless steel dildo."

Again, the stats on this incredible piece: 11" long, 2 3/4 POUNDS, 2" in diameter on one end and 1 3/4" in diameter on the other. Yeah. Sheesh. Just a tad intimidating.

Okay... back to the "eleven".

I finally brought the "eleven" into my bedroom a few months ago. And on my bedroom floor, next to my bed was where is sat. Giving me the "you know you wanna try me out" eye...

So on Monday I made the decision, posted it on Facebook so I'd be held accountable in case anyone actually paid attention, and began sweating it after I pulled it out of the pot I boiled it in.
Seriously, how was I going to take this bad boy on without a "fluffer" to help get me warmed up?

I'm a small person! How the hell was I going to get that in there??!?! Seriously?!?!

Oh man. What did I get myself into? People were waiting. If I chickened out, I wouldn't hear the end of it. Yep, some peeps caught that I was going to make the attempt at the "eleven". It's funny how so many status updates go unnoticed, but of course when I post about a 3lb. stainless steel piece, people take notice.

So I made my way up the stairs, with that cold steel in my grips and some tips in my mind, up to my bedroom...

I was really going to do this. People love this piece. People rave about this piece. Will it really be a "treat"? I was about to find out.

With some music in the background, the lights down low, a bottle of lube and my Je Joue "MiMi" nearby, I stripped off my clothes and got cozy on my bed. My hands wandering slowly down my body... the pads of my fingertips grazing lightly across the soft mound of pubic hair (I'm not into being completely bare there)... breathe... I just needed to relax...

Thoughts crossed my mind. Memories replaying in my mind, remembering some of the hottest encounters I'd had. I fantasized about certain men (not telling who) -- some I'd been with and maybe some I want to be with.

I could feel the swelling under my fingertips as the blood rushed to the sensitive parts of my body... getting wetter... my fingers working slowly and lightly at first.... and then with more urgency.

MiMi came into play for just a little bit for my warm up. I do love a little vibration (okay, a lot of vibration). I only needed a little vibration at that moment and MiMi was the perfect choice for me.

I could feel my body warming up more... was I ready for this?

Setting MiMi aside and taking the "eleven" in my hand... my fingers wrapped around the ridges along the one side of the piece. "Try the handle first" was a piece of advice I was given. I did want to give those ridges a try.... and that was the smaller, less intimidating, end as well.

I could feel the cool steel against my skin... between my legs... against my lips... sliding the "eleven" between my lips... pressing.... I was ready for it... and slowly and as gently, yet firmly, slid the "eleven" inside.

The steel is so smooth, it slid right in... my body giving in to it... filling me up...
I could only feel the ridges slightly as I slid the "eleven" in and out of my body a little bit at a time... the head of the "eleven" seemed to tune in to my G-spot with almost no effort.

It's almost as if all of the njoy pieces I have were designed just for my G-spot.

I much prefer the rocking motion of this piece... letting it work its magic on my G-spot. And as a tease to myself, sliding it in and out and then back again onto my G-spot. Was I ready for the other side? I was definitely warmed up enough.

Taking a deep breath and keeping myself on the edge of orgasm, I pulled the "eleven" out and flipped it around. Deep breath... pressing that end against me.... deep breath... relax.... nothing.

This was not going to happen. Don't want to force it... try again. Breathe... nothing. Ugh.

Maybe I needed to orgasm and I'll be even more relaxed... okay... flip it over.... let's do this...

Grabbed my "MiMi" for a little help and off I got...

Okay... feeling good... I love a nice "Big O". I'm trying again...

Sad to report... I could not handle it that night. It just wasn't happening. I felt like I was going split myself in half! Argh. Seriously?? I've encountered penises that size before! Even one that was bigger! Come on!

Yep, my body just wasn't having it. I'm sorry to say. But, I was pretty happy that I was able to handle at least part of it at least. Good effort, right?

It's eyed me for long enough

Tonight was going to be the night, dammit.

I don't know what made me make the decision, but the decision was made. After months and months of the njoy "eleven" giving me the eye, I was going to give this piece of stainless steel a go.

I was a tad nervous when I had to pull the BIG POT out of the cabinet so I could boil it to make sure it was nice and clean. While it cooled down, I got a little more nervous.

How in the world was this going to work? Have you seen how big it is??? How was I going to fit that in there??? It's definitely an intimidating piece of work. Sooo not like the other njoy pieces that I have. This is one big boy!

I had already mentioned it on my Facebook and on Twitter, so there was no backing down. People were waiting.

So sometime around half past midnight... after much encouragement from n eleven users and some egging on by friends on Facebook, I wandered up to my bedroom, lube in hand, with this 11"long and nearly 3lb. piece of stainless steel...

I'm going to need a little bit of time to actually write up my experience with this piece. I guess I need a little recovery time... and maybe another go...

Vacate my head

Dreaming about a man I'll never see again just bums me out. Can I just wash him right out of my head please?

No one else stands a chance if he's still lingering there...


~ Pleasure Pamela
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The Vagina Monologues

Last night was the first performance of Eve Ensler's "Vagina Monologues" and it was a PACKED house!

So awesome!

I was so nervous playing emcee, that I felt like I needed to be holding a vibrator so I'd be more comfortable in front of such a big crowd. :-p

The ladies (and gent) in the cast did such an amazing job! I know during one of the monologues, I saw a man in the audience wipe his eyes because he was crying. It moved him that.

It was great to see familiar faces in the audience. It was great to see such a positive response.

Some of the topics were serious, but some were funny. And I believe that there was something in there that every woman could relate to.

Donations were accepted at the door to help raise money for the Ovarian Cancer Research Foundation, as well as a Silent Auction for a couple incredible donated gifts.

One of the gifts was the "Freestyle:G" from the wonderful folks at OhMiBod. I think folks were all giggly about it at first when they saw it was a vibrator but when we explained how awesome it is, being such a perfect pairing of technology and pleasure, people were bidding!

We had an ecstatic winner last night and there will be another winner at TONIGHT'S show! The "Freestyle:G" won't be the only gift either. The giving folks at McLanahan's donated some sweet Penn State items to the show as well! I kinda want one of the items myself!

Hope to see you tonight! Tonight @ 7pm in 102 Forum

There's also a show tomorrow @ 2pm in 102 Forum, but I won't be there cuz I have a wedding (tell you more about that at another time).



~ Pleasure Pamela
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Dress

Today, (or yday, if you want to be technical) I totally bought the dress you see below.

I've been thinking about it since I first spotted it and told myself if it was still in the vintage shop's window, I'd try it on. If it didn't fit, it wasn't meant to be and I could stop thinking about it.

So I went down to The Rag and Bone, spotted the dress still in the window and asked to try it on.

It fit. I bought it. Yeah, it's totally hanging up in my bedroom.

Now I have to get some pics taken in it. I really have no idea when I will wear it, but I had to have it.



~ Pleasure Pamela
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An "Onward State" Article About Me

The State College/Penn State online news website, "Onward State", featured an article about me on their site today. Yay!

Check it out here and lemme know what you think. :-)

A Birthday E-Mail

So you know I've had to resort to a dating service (which will remain unnamed) just so I could expand my dating prospects? Probably helps if I actually try to go out with a couple of the matches, but I'll get into that another time.

Anyway... My birthday was the other week. I'm still shocked by 35. :-/

I received this lovely e-mail from the dating service that started off with a "Happy 35th Birthday!" and continued with a "Still single?"

If I could have, I would have reached thru my computer and wrung the neck of the genius who though saying something like that was a good idea. Hrumph...


~ Pleasure Pamela
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Vintage

As I was walking downtown this week, I spotted this dress in the window of a local vintage clothing, stopped, backed up, went up the steps to the window and snapped a shot of this dress. I don't know what it is about it, but I was drawn to it. I didn't go in to check the size or the price just to keep me on check.

I think it's a really pretty dress anyway... :-p




~ Pleasure Pamela
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FetFest?

I've heard about this site called "FetLife" from quite a few people since I've always been curious about exploring more of the world of kink these days, especially since nearly all of my past boyfriends weren't into exploring that world with me and since I'm still single (and plan to be for a while longer), I might as well give it a go, ya know?

Think of FetLife as the kink version of MySpace. ;-)

It would be great if I had a trusting partner to experience it with, but I don't need to depend on someone else to do these things with. I've put off really exploring this world for so long and I don't want to end up in my 50's or 60's and regretting not doing so, ya know?

Anyway, I found out that the folks of FetLife are going to have their very first "FetFest" over Labor Day weekend in Maryland.

Some people think that if you're a person who wants a little kink in your life, no matter how great or small, that you're a deviant or pervert. Sorry. I don't think so. I feel like those folks who feel that way are either really missing out on so much or they're those folks who are secretly doing some really horrible things behind closed doors.

It's funny when I think about it. Some people see "kink" as maybe some light spanking while others may see it as something more extreme. Everyone has their own version of kink.

I want to let my little freak flag fly! And I wanna do it with other folks who feel the same way and aren't afraid to fly it!

And really, I would like to find out where my boundaries are. Is that weird? I hope not. And even if you might think it is, I don't care. You're allowed to think what you want. :-)

Some common courtesy please

So this post is a bitching post because well, sometimes I need to vent.

I did a Party the other night and it would've been nice if some of the guests had just some common courtesy for my hostesses, the other guests, and me. That is what is starting this tangent.

It's all about arriving to the event on time.

My e-vites let guests know the START TIME of the event, along with a note to please arrive early so we can start on time. Start Time = when I will start doing the Party. Duh. Start Time does NOT mean when to show up nor does it mean it might start then.

People who show up super-late, hold up the Party sometimes. Or if they show up when I'm already halfway thru, expect me to re-explain what I had already gone thru for everyone else.

Latecomers are showing no courtesy to the guests who arrived on time nor to the hostesses. They're making us waste our time, which in the end is affecting my income because I have to sit there and wait for them, too.

And then we have those guests who ask me to go over the stuff I've gone over already because they just couldn't get there on time and get upset because I won't go over products. "I'm sorry, I've already gone over it and you couldn't be bothered to be there so I can't be bothered to do another demo just for you." I can't waste my time, especially if I have another Party to get to that day.

Yes, I understand that sometimes there are reasons for people to be late and those are the folks who actually give my hostesses a heads up ahead of time and I tend to be a bit more lenient to them.

Oh, and then we have those folks who have shown up an hour late (when they live not even 10 minutes away from my hostess) and then have the nerve to leave halfway thru! Really? Really?? So annoying.

I'm talking about the people who seem to show up whenever they feel like it. My hostesses are left sitting there wondering when they'll show up, if they show up at all.

And that leads me to those folks who RSVP with my hostesses that they're attending and then just don't show. That's just damn annoying. It is. My hostesses and I get ourselves ready for the Party. My hostesses are buying and prepping refreshments for the number of people who say they're going to attend. That's money being spent. If she's prepping for 2o or so people to show up and then maybe half show, that's her money down the drain. If you weren't planning on attending, don't say "yes" and flake out. She's banking on you actually attending. As am I.

THIS is how I make my living. I don't do this as a hobby or a side job. I eat, I pay my bills, I live off of this money.

My hostess is counting on you to actually show up and order something so that she can get all of the products that she wants for free. I always feel really bad for my hostesses who end up with a bad party. I've seen Parties with 15 guests where most of those guests just show up, eat her food, drink her booze, and then leave without ordering a damn thing and her Party doesn't even hit $200! Seriously?!?! I've heard some not-so-nice words escape my hostesses' lips whenever that has happened.

See, I've seen Parties with just 5 guests and sales of $1,000 so it's not just the number in attendance. It's the kind of guests.

They've been invited to the Party to have a great time with their friends, but they're also expected to order something when they show up. That's how these Parties work. Again, my hostesses are banking on their order so they can get their freebies.

So that's my rant. Just had to do it.

seriously?

So I received this e-mail in my Inbox via the online dating site I've been scoping out:

"hey... you look amazing. I'm coming out your way for work, we should
hook up while I'm out there :-) write me back if you want..."

Uhhh... nowhere on my profile does it say that I'm looking for a hookup. Really? That e-mail doesn't deserve a response. Grrrr...

A Birthday Gift

So today (Thursday) was my birthday. 35. WTF???! Where the hell did it come from?? Seriously?!?!

I can honestly tell you that I wasn't even thinking about doing anything to celebrate really. 35?!?! I need some time to recover.

While still in bed, I grabbed my phone and logged onto Facebook. It was really find a bunch of birthday greetings waiting for me. I'm so blessed to have some really awesome people in my life.

I did receive an pretty awesome and surprising phone call from a friend who sang "Happy Birthday" to me over the phone. Made me a little teary because that was something my godmother would do every year and last year was the first time I went without that phone call, so that was really sweet of him.

I was treated to a yummy piece of locally-made tiramisu at my friend Dave's restaurant. Boy, does he know the way to my heart. ;-)

The rest of the afternoon was spent running a couple more errands and not doing work stuff. It was my birthday and I wasn't going to do work, so hopefully people understand. I answer e-mails in the middle of the night, while I'm out with friends and while I'm in bed (my phone is pretty much attached to my hand) so I deserve a day off from all of it here and there.

By the end of the day, I did want to spend some time with friends. Food + Friends is one of my favorite things. So Faccia Luna was on the agenda.

Faccia's vodka sauce is scrumptious.

And I love presents! Who doesn't, right? One of the great gifts I received was this "Love Listography". I love lists. I don't know why. Is that weird. But I also love love. I'm forever the romantic, as much as I try to find it.

I think this book is a great thing because I can actually put things down on paper and it'll help me focus on the things that I do want, along with some great memories of past relationships and loves.

The other book I was given is a book journal -- a journal for me to write down all of the books I read (or audiobooks that I listen to) so I can remember the good and bad about a particular story. I've read so many books and listened to so many that I've forgotten some of them.

Yay! Thanks to my awesome friends!

Oh man

Happy Birthday to me. Freakin' 35....

What the heck happened here?!? :-/

I think I'm going to hide in my hidey for a good part of the day. Okay, well mostly because I'm about to go to bed and it's 5am...


~ Pleasure Pamela
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A fantastic Party quote

I did a Party tonight with a group of ladies and it was great times as usual.

But I have to tell you... during the break I like to take, I overheard one of the girls asking another about the kegel balls that she has, called "K-Balls", from Ophoria Toys. It was something along the lines of "Did you notice a difference?" What did I hear? You're going to love the answer...

"My vagina can choke out a penis!"

Awesome! If that's not a great testimony, I don't know what is!

"K-Balls" or "Luna Beads" from LELO, anyone? ;-)

Amazon "Wish List"

My Birthday is coming up this week. Oh man... the 14th anniversary of my 21st birthday.

Where the hell did the freakin' time go??? Seriously????

Anyway, I thought I'd come up with an Amazon "Wish List". Why not, right? It's a wish list for a reason.... it's like a little pipe dream...

Working on website content

I'm working on the content for my new website.... okay, so I've been working on this content for a long time. Have you seen the site yet? I love the illustration! What do you think? Troy from 3twenty9 Design did the illustration and the company is helping me with the site itself. They're an awesome group of folks!

Check out the website here.

This Dating Thing...

Back in January I'd decided, that after months and months, I was going to dip my toe back into the dating pool. But after just two dates - one of which resulted in me wearing a wrist brace for over a month and the other revealing just a tad too much information up front (including that he had Googled me and found out what I do for a living), I kind of pulled myself out of it for a bit.

I don't want to discuss what I do for living right away because I want someone who wants to be with me because of me. And if he doesn't want to be with me, I want it to be because we're not a match. I don't want it to be because I am the "sex toy lady" for either case.

I began thinking that dating just requires too much of my time. I'm looking for someone to fit into my life with ease. Someone who doesn't whine about my independence, my work schedule, and my undomesticness (I know that's not a real world, but just go with it). Someone who actually likes toys and doesn't think about trying to get me to quit. Someone who's the support that I need and will be there if I need him to be.

Actually, part of me just doesn't want to put the work into dating. Is that bad?

This is the longest that I've been single since I was 17 years old and I've been enjoying it.

Gees, what am I going to do when one night I have to share a bed with a straight boy? What if it's my bed? I like sleeping alone in my bed. I've FINALLY just started to work my way into the center of my bed!

If I wanna get my snuggle time in with a boy, I have a boy I can snuggle with and not worry about him trying to poke me somewhere. I mean, it's nice to snuggle up to someone sometimes.

It'll be back to the drawing board sooner or later... I'll have to see...

Oh, njoy "Eleven"...

I'd like you to meet the "Eleven" from njoy. 2-3/4 pounds (yes, pounds) and 11" long of gorgeous and cool stainless steel. 2" on one end and 1-3/4" on the other. This stunning piece is a monster of a piece.

"For Your Pleasure" used to carry the "Eleven" as a Hostess Exclusive Item in the last catalog when we picked up a large portion of the njoy collection.

I do love stainless steel and was absolutely ecstatic when njoy was added to our catalog! I had always been curious about it and this would be my chance to try it out. Since I've always been a big fan of glass, stainless steel naturally seemed like the next step.

I can tell you that I have both the "Pure Wand" and "Fun Wand" and I especially love the "Fun Wand".

So if I'm a big fan of the smaller "Fun Wand", how did I come into possession of this fine piece of steel that is the "Eleven"? I actually won it at a "For Your Pleasure" convention. Lucky me!

I'm going to be honest with you, it intimidated me. Still does. The piece comes in its own leather clutch for Pete's sake! And it did sit in my car as weapon should I ever needed it. (imagine the headline if I ever had to fight off an attacker with a huge stainless steel dildo).

The "Eleven" has moved from the car to my bedroom and it's been giving me the eye lately.

Can I handle a piece like that??

I've spoken with one of the peeps from njoy and he told me how someone he knows absolutely loves the piece and she gets off so quickly with it.... soooo.... I'm very, very curious about it.

I have this piece, so how can I let it go to waste, right?

I'm going to let it give me the eye for a bit longer and I may wink at it... And I'll let you know how it goes when it finally goes down. I am "Pleasure Pamela" and it's all about the pleasure after all, right? ;-)

Sperm-friendly

I wanted to write this from my laptop but it decided that its theme for the night would be "not responding". I seriously wanted to throw it out the window.

I was finally able to get my uploaded Vistaprint images onto various products for work (after having Troy from 3twenty9 Design send me several versions of my illustration to me) and then it froze. Well, Firefox and then Internet Explorer froze. Grrr... I had Party invitations that I had to send out. Even Tweetdeck froze.

I'm going to keep MacBook-dreamin'. And then perhaps punch my laptop in the face when I do get a MacBook.

Anyway... I wanted to write about a question a recent Party guest had for me the other week.

She asked if the lubes I show (Sliquid Swirl, Sliquid Silver, and the For Your Pleasure Waterslide) were sperm-friendly. Huh? I'd never been asked that question before. I knew they were spermicidal lubes since we don't carry lubes like that because they can be irritating to a lot of women, so they didn't necessarily kill sperm. What in the world was she talking about?

She began to fill me in on her situation: she and her husband have been trying to conceive and were told that for couples who have had more of a difficult time getting pregnant, everyday lubes can be bad for sperm. They were told to use a specific brand that's sperm-friendly. But they don't like it because it has a bad smell. I can understand why she would be looking into other lubes. If something smells bad to you, how is that suppose to help you stay in the mood for sex, right?

I went home and scoped out the lube she's been using, "Pre-Seed" and did a little research but I found a lot of jargon that I didn't get, so I knew I would have to ask a medical professional about this.

Have YOU heard of sperm-friendly lubes? The lubes I show are glycerine-free and some are also paraben-free so they are more healthy for the female body, but sperm-friendly is certainly a first for me.

~ Pleasure Pamela
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