Setting Me Up...

I love my friends.

I love that I can count on them.  Well, most of them.

And I love that they like me so much that they want to set me up with one of their friends because they want me to be in a happy and healthy relationship.  (Or according to a couple, at least fucking the people that they can't so they can live vicariously thru me).  I appreciate their thoughtfulness and I'm grateful for them and their attempts.

But, I would hope that some know me well enough to know what type of guy to try to set me up with.  Sometimes I have to wonder when I hear the description of their "awesome buddy".  "Do you really think he'll make it thru the night without me strangling him?" is a thought that goes thru my head sometimes.  It's either that or "Uhhh... do you even know me??"

I know this is the longest that I've been single, but I really don't miss the relationship thing.  And I have some great friends in my life who had been single for even longer than this and they're still alive, normal, and happily in awesome relationships.  If I meet the right guy, I could reconsider the whole relationship thing.  You never know.

I really do appreciate my friends for even thinking of me and for wanting to set me up with their friends.  That means something to me.  It's like they think that we're matches for each other and we really would have a great time.  Cuz who wants to be the friend who set their other friend up with a shitty date, right?

I want and like this time to myself.  That's how I feel.  And like I've said before, I just can't be bothered to try to date these days.  I can't even be bothered to have sex!  Whoa.  Did I really just say that?  Yeah, I did.  I've got my toys, after all.  And if I meet someone really awesome, I could set the toys aside... for a little while anyway.

seriously?

So I received this e-mail in my Inbox via the online dating site I've been scoping out:

"hey... you look amazing. I'm coming out your way for work, we should
hook up while I'm out there :-) write me back if you want..."

Uhhh... nowhere on my profile does it say that I'm looking for a hookup. Really? That e-mail doesn't deserve a response. Grrrr...

This Dating Thing...

Back in January I'd decided, that after months and months, I was going to dip my toe back into the dating pool. But after just two dates - one of which resulted in me wearing a wrist brace for over a month and the other revealing just a tad too much information up front (including that he had Googled me and found out what I do for a living), I kind of pulled myself out of it for a bit.

I don't want to discuss what I do for living right away because I want someone who wants to be with me because of me. And if he doesn't want to be with me, I want it to be because we're not a match. I don't want it to be because I am the "sex toy lady" for either case.

I began thinking that dating just requires too much of my time. I'm looking for someone to fit into my life with ease. Someone who doesn't whine about my independence, my work schedule, and my undomesticness (I know that's not a real world, but just go with it). Someone who actually likes toys and doesn't think about trying to get me to quit. Someone who's the support that I need and will be there if I need him to be.

Actually, part of me just doesn't want to put the work into dating. Is that bad?

This is the longest that I've been single since I was 17 years old and I've been enjoying it.

Gees, what am I going to do when one night I have to share a bed with a straight boy? What if it's my bed? I like sleeping alone in my bed. I've FINALLY just started to work my way into the center of my bed!

If I wanna get my snuggle time in with a boy, I have a boy I can snuggle with and not worry about him trying to poke me somewhere. I mean, it's nice to snuggle up to someone sometimes.

It'll be back to the drawing board sooner or later... I'll have to see...

Can I have my cake...

... and eat it, too?

I want a man who wants to be with because of me (who I am) -- not because of what I do for a living.

And I don't want a man to NOT want to be with me because of what I do.

Ugh.

I try to stay out in the public eye for work and then I still want my privacy. I don't really like the idea of someone Googling me and knowing the work side of my life until I tell them, if they don't already know.

Ugh. Ugh.

I really do want my cake and eat it, too.

Dating and the Sex Toy Lady

Being in a college town makes it a bit difficult to date -- they're either puppies and way too young to date seriously or they're guys my age who have fallen into the "Peter Pan" syndrome. Those "Peter Pans" can be fun at times, but there are times when I want to spend time with a "man", not a "guy".

It gets tiring going out to the bars. Who really wants to meet someone at a bar? I mean, for something of substance.

And then add what I do for a living to it. I'm totally screwed!

So I've been working on something and will soon be posting about it.

Stay tuned...